I will not write with the intention of being great. I will write only because I have to. Only because if I do not a shaking calm of insanity will be overwhelming. My empty clacking and spewing out onto the world only serves as a release valve. And if perhaps someone does read this it may be their treasure and their trash much like right now it is the same for me. It is the whole. It is the paradox it is the polars.
Today a little boy left this world. At 10:08. And I guess at sometimes we are all forced to leave. Pushed out into the unknown, perhaps not into the unheard of, or the unrecognisable, but out of what we believe we know. Some are simply asked to leave, and do so without shame, without rage, without clinched fists that pound so heavily on what might as well be nothing. Perhaps the willingness comes from a lack of knowledge of what this world is. But it could be the lack of fear, that even though in a tiny conscience there is a voice that says, “The water is cold, and dark. But it is deep. And diving in, well diving in, that is the way to go.” Victory in death.
Today a little girl came into this world. 7 pounds and 7 ounces. And we are all pushed to enter. Sputtering to life. Kicking and screaming against what might as well be nothing. Wanting the confines of the womb’s tight embrace. Wanting to feel resistance. And we find our way. Or we lose it. That may be it. Like Hansel and Gretel, the more time passes the more we get off the path. And the breadcrumbs are eaten up. But help will come. Victory in life.
On the cross hands were nailed down. Left and right. Polars. As if to permanently be a picture, a reminder, of who can find the path once they see it in the light. All those East. All those West. And feet were nailed down, and on a head a crown was placed. The same crown that the cynics and critics have placed. Meant in mockery; shown as splendour. Polars. Feet that were planted, and walked, and held body upright on solid earth. A head that was higher than just in the clouds, but had knowledge of the highest heaven was now covered in blood. Blood in the eyes. Across the nose. Down the cheeks. And into a mouth as it cried out. “Victory!”
Living and Dying. Polars. The paradox is that we do them both simultaneously and equally well. We die yet we live. We live yet we die.
This is music for the space-folk version of “Let Go,” a song Stacy wrote. It was my first attempt at Garageband which Stewie so generously let me use on her Macbook.
The final version will be more mellow, and not so sci-fi.
My wife recently listed Yahoo’s pick of the top 100 movies you should see before you die. She has only seen 21 of those movies so I decided to do the same list and bold the ones I have seen as well.
12 Angry Men 2001: A Space Odyssey
The 400 Blows
8 1/2
The African Queen Alien
All About Eve
Annie Hall Apocalypse Now
The Battle of Algiers
The Bicycle Thief Blade Runner
Blazing Saddles
Blow Up
Blue Velvet
Bonnie and Clyde
Breathless
The Bridge of the River Kwai
Bringing Up Baby Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid
Casablanca
China Town
Citizen Kane
Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon Die Hard
Do the Right Thing Double Indemnity
Dr. Strangelove
Duck Soup E.T. Enter the Dragon
The Exorcist
Fast Times at Ridgemont High
The French Connection
The Godfather
The Godfather: Part II Goldfinger
The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly Goodfellas
The Graduate
Grand Illusion Groundhog Day
A Hard Day’s Night
In the Mood for Love
It Happened One Night It’s A Wonderful Life
Jaws
King Kong (1933)
The Lady Eve
Lawrence of Arabia The Lord of the Rings
M
M*A*S*H* The Maltese Falcon The Matrix
Modern Times Monty Python and the Holy Grail National Lampoon’s Animal House
Network
Nosferatu
On the Waterfront One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest
Paths of Glory
Princess Mononoke Psycho
Pulp Fiction
Raging Bull Raiders of the Lost Ark
Raise the Red Lantern
Rashomon Rear Window
Rebel Without a Cause Rocky
Roman Holiday Saving Private Ryan Schindler’s List
The Searchers Seven Samurai (1954) The Shawshank Redemption The Silence of the Lambs
Singin’ In the Rain
Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs
Some Like It Hot The Sound of Music Star Wars
Sunset Blvd. Terminator 2: Judgement Day The Third Man
This is Spinal Tap
Titanic To Kill a Mockingbird Toy Story
The Usual Suspects Vertigo
When Harry Met Sally…
Wild Strawberries
Wings of Desire The Wizard of Oz
Women on the Verge of a Nervous Breakdown
The World of Apu
So I have seen 51. Stacy needs to get on it.
There were only two that Stacy has seen that I haven’t. Can you guess which ones?
